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Gahh...I'm soo sick of not having new in my life...friend wise..its so hard for me to hang out with people I don't know before hand..At least at VCU, I want to meet new people but its hard to for me because I'm so fucking shy all the time..I mean its not too hard for me to talk to women which are all that really matter but I need some awesome guy friends in my life..I mean John's cool and all and I like Ethan even though he barely hangs with me...that fucker..but anyways I just want a true best friend. I've only really had one his name is Felix Romaro..and the kid moved away..I'm thinking if I hung out with him now he would be completely wack..I mean he looks like a nerd now..it sucks. Plus whenever I tried to talk to him on myspace he completely ignored me it was so gay. Whatever, fuck him. I really want a best friend I hate that I really don't. John is cool and all but he isn't willing to even drive 30 mins to hang out with me, I have to go pick his ass up still! GOD FUCKING DAMN SCREW THAT FUCKER!! I'm so tired of driving his ass around! Plus are personalities clash so much and I'm so different from him. Plus he is always sad and it brings down my mood. I just want a chill guy friend who enjoys a lot of the similar things as I do. 

I wish Jessica hadn't become such a fucking train wreck because I fucking miss that bitch..I miss the old Jessica..I fucking miss Jackie too!! god I miss my life when I was 16 and my 11 grade year. Everything was so fucking wonderful..gah..